Getting and Staying Healthy After Fifty

… depression makes it impossible to get off your butt and exercise. When I’m depressed, I just sit in front of the computer or read all day. No way am I going outside, because that would involve getting into some decent, not grease stained, clothes and actually making myself look decent to go out.

It’s much easier to sit here and do nothing, except that it makes me more depressed. I haven’t eaten much today, so that’s a good thing, but I haven’t drunk enough water or juice either.

Why does everything in life boil down to an impossible choice? This is why so many people sit and do nothing with our lives. They go to boring jobs, pay the same bills, watch the same t.v. programs, and basically turn into mindless blobs. It’s because doing something different would require making a choice.

Choices are hard. Indecision is easy. Change is hard. Sameness is easy. If you make a choice, it can be the wrong one, so why risk it? Risk is hard, and it most of the time leads to failure. Getting up and brushing yourself off and starting over is hard. Not starting at all is easy.

Failure is easy when it’s all you’ve ever known. You get comfortable with it, with being a failure. You become numb to the world that keeps pushing you to do more, ask more, feel more, be more.

You just sit, and become a lump. I’m a lump. Now I have to make a choice…do I want to stay a lump or do something about it?

Choices are hard.

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